The economics of being me - k dlamini

It's day break again and I'm faced with the same decision I've had to deal with for almost two years now, "do I spend my day feeling sorry for myself and in self pity or do I spend it with as much positivity that as possible?" Now this is no ordinary decision because it is not based on how I feel, but on which one alternative will benefit the most people? At this point you would ask why am I concerned with other people when I am the one sitting in front of the fan that the 'ish just hit?' Well it is called opportunity cost and that simply is the value of the next-best choice available to
someone who has picked between several things that cannot occur at the same time. So I try to choose the one that will cost the less and that is having positive thoughts, smiling, cracking a few jokes and whatever stuff that normal human beings do when they are happy. Trust me it is never easy because the voices in my head always remind me that I have every right to moan, complain and be bitter 24/7 and they are right, but this is not about right or wrong. Think about it: I have had pains in my body 24/7 since june 2008 and still counting and have spent 95% of those days indoors between the bedroom and lounge. So everyday I soldier on with a big smile on my face, a beating heart which I personaly think should give up the ghost and a dead soul because thats the best thing to do and for some reason my right eye has noticed the scam, so it has started to water without any encouragement from me. I refuse to cry and no, this has nothing to do with being macho. Machoness is for sheep, real man do what they want, hoorah! Don't get me wrong I do cry sometimes, but it lasts for less than half a minute, because to cry longer than that requires one to replay the sad movie of life over and over again and I'm no broken record. Anyway I have to cut this short before the voices come back. Have a nice day friend, make it profitable and mainly fun. Dont forget to write.

Love,
Khaya